one step much start each journey

i want to:

• have more nights like last Saturday...
• eat in a new restaurant every week...
• expand my spanish vocabulary...
• have flowers in my room always...
• make a monthly budget and follow it...
• find a way to incorporate the chocolate donut I had today into my diet (dinner?)
• get a sim card for my i4...
• skype with Mya and Jogee...
• call my grandma just to hear her say she loves me and for her to tell me I'm special...
• meet more fun people in Haro that aren't on my team...
• have courage, always...
• make a pineapple coconut cheesecake
• hug someone I love...

because it's Wednesday and I'm smiling

I took this from a blog I read and love: http://myteacupsinpeony.blogspot.com/ and because I can officially say that according to this list I AM fearless:

fearless is not the absence of fear.
it’s not being completely unafraid.
fearless is having fears.
fearless is having doubts. lots of them.
fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.
fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you’ve been hurt before.
it’s fearless to have faith that someday things will change.
fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can’t breathe without them.
i think it’s fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he’s in love with someone else.
and when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them.
it’s fearless to say “you’re not sorry”, and walk away.
i think loving someone despite what people think is fearless.
i think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is fearless.
letting go is fearless.
then, moving on and being alright…that’s fearless too.
but no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it.
you have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after.
love is fearless.

summer is over

so here it was:

home after 9 1/2 months and she didn't forget me :)

Anthony turned 21

I partied in San Diego with the Beautifuls

we met Sandra at the finish line of a half marathon in San Diego

partied with some old friends in Vegas and listen to reggae with mom and my old college roomy

I stayed in this little cottage in colorado

we celebrated Father's Day with the kiddos

I spent 2 amazing weeks in Maui with Dave

I felt the pressure of NBA basketball from the scorer's table

I entertained my Czech teammate from France in Vegas

these kids made me smile everyday, even on the days I cried

we caught some stares with our matching shirts throughout Green Valley

I had the chance to reunite with old high school alumni at GVHS

I helped my mom pick out a wig for an 80's party

now I live here, with this smile all the time

my life is...

sleeping with a only a sheet...

nescafe every morning...

sweet sweet nectarines...

red rioja wines...

volley...

complete excitement from receiving emails...

eat, pray, love...

celebrating the virgin de la vega in street markets and fairs...

usa basketball...

missing mya and jogee...

my new black bag...

listening intently, speaking slowly and smiling always...

excitement in my chest from what tomorrow will bring, everyday...

turning every corner and finding something new...

living phone less...

barbecues in the park...

the realization of how blessed I am as I look back over the past 6 months...

good.