On a lighter note, I celebrated my 75th birthday :) . Nothing big, but I am another year older and got lots of loving messages and phone calls from friends and family. Mya sang happy birthday to me over the webcam, kind of. I helped her a little bit and she listened to my singing for a second, so mesmerized that she couldn’t continue, ha or that’s what I told myself. I love her and miss her, Ja’Nice, and Jojo soooooo much. We had practice at noon and then again at eight so there wasn’t room for much else, considering on a Tuesday in France everything closes around nine. Regan arranged a little get together at Alice’s with some yummy French pastries and a few cherry beers that I’ve come to love. We sat with the girls and talked for a few hours; definitely the best we could do under the circumstances, thanks Regan!
Christmas, Valentine and Birthday cards from home :)
I’ve been thinking so much about the future and what it holds for me lately. And honestly it scares me. I was talking to a good friend from home that had to actually say it to make me realize that I do kind of fear not knowing what’s going to happen. But when do we ever? Have you ever heard that saying that we make plans and God laughs? I’m beginning to think there’s some truth behind that. I look back at “pivotal” moments in my life when I was like “this is what I want to do, this is what I AM GOING to do” and then something happen and it went to pieces. So many times… I guess from these moments I have learned that I can make plans and set goals but have to be prepared for anything, because after the last two weeks I’ve learned anything can happen.
I’ve found a lot of solace in music lately. I love music and I think whenever I listen to music it puts me in such a better mood. Have you ever heard the song “Trenchtown Rock” by Bob Marley? It’s so true, he says “one good thing about music, it makes you feel ok….” For me Bob is dead on. I felt crappy one night so the next day I went to the gym and ran with my iPod on, I hardly wanted to take it off to get in the shower, after I left the gym I got into my Range Rover, that is so nice that it doesn’t have a radio, and kept it on, by the time I got to the grocery store, I knew I wasn’t taking it off and I walked around for about two hours with it on, singing and dancing like an idiot. The funny thing was I didn’t care, I knew people were looking at me (for more reasons then my singing), but this put me in a good mood and I can honestly say, was one of the best days I’ve had in Terville, being alone and in complete joy.
Tomorrow is my dad’s 44th birthday; yes he’s still a strapping young man :) . Once when I was in 8th grade my dad put some real fear in me. We were talking about being tall and he told my, “You know, I’m not going to live much longer; tall people don’t live to be that old.” I almost started to cry considering the fact that I was already taller then everyone, including the teachers in my middle school. I was convinced he was serious, so I asked my health teacher the next day was this a fact. This small (smaller than me at the age of 13), 60 year old man looks up at me, “Of course not Jennifer, as we get older we shrink” haha. So Dad, no worries, you’re not going to die at a young age, just shrink. Happy Birthday old man!
Thank you Sandra for giving me strength. Mom for understanding. Ja’Nice for comfort. Alana for cheer. Jessie for smiles. Karen for caring. Dave for making me laugh. Jenny for turning old memories into smiles. Regan for giving me familiarity. Michael for companionship and Ryan for being concerned. I love you all.
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